It was a rough year for General Hospital actress Kimberly McCullogh, and now, the 37-year-old has opened up about what made the year so hard in--particular, her miscarriage while 22 weeks pregnant.

McCullogh was expecting a daughter midway through the year when she suffered the loss, something she has since opened up about in a blog post recapping the year on her website.

"This summer my beloved Melba passed away. She had a good run (she was 13 yrs old) but I was a little sad she wasn't going to meet the baby...I had just found out I was pregnant," she wrote. "Two weeks later I was in my office (OMG) over at Pretty Little Liars and I got a call from my doctor. The nurse came on the phone and to my surprise, told me I was having a girl. That was probably the best day of my life thus far, the one I will remember as 'having it all.' It was the night before my first day of shooting. I was prepared. I was fulfilled."

"...My heart was so full and then it broke. I had lost my baby girl," she continued. "It was too much. I didn't need to learn this lesson. I wasn't interested. But I wasn't in control. These things happen and no, I don't believe they happen 'for a reason.' I'm still processing, still healing, but anyone who has gone through it knows, losing a baby at 22 weeks is tragic. One thing I am proud of however was that I allowed myself to be happy and relish the moment. I sat in all that goodness and I can recall those feelings (when I'm having different ones) and hope that it can be like that again."

The little girl would have been McCullogh's first child.

However, despite the traumatic events, she did admit that professionally, her year was wonderful, and she was glad to be closing it out by seeing her former co-star, Jason Thompson, as she helped out with his send-off from the show, and she resolved to make 2016 a year that allows her to truly heal and move on.

" ...I also got to spend time with my General Hospital family and see my good friend Jason Thompson off, hopefully to greener pastures," she wrote. "I'm really proud of the work we did, not just this go around but over the last ten years. I made a great friend (JT), I gained a TV Daughter (the most precious soul on the planet) and got to tell an important and at times, really fun story. Not to go total Oprah on you, but at the end of this year and the beginning of the next, I am grateful for it all. Tired. But grateful."

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