While her messy split with Lamar Odom is being aired on the current season of Keeping up with the Kardashians, a source has revealed that Khloe Kardashian blames herself for their split, Hollywood Life reported Thursday.

An insider told the site, "She thinks she was too hard on him and pushed him away when all she was trying to do was bring him closer when he was at his worst. She'll never admit that, but it's true. It's Khloe. It's her fabric and it's who she is. She really didn't want to leave Lamar but she had to. She had to for her soul."

Since filing for divorce in mid-December of last year, Kardashian has moved out of the house she and Lamar had together. The source claimed that it was too much for the reality star to live there as it is a constant reminder that she could not save her marriage.

"She hates that place so much because in her mind, she failed. Can you believe she thinks she failed as a wife? She was crazy in love with Lamar and thinks she failed him because she couldn't make him get off drugs," the source said.

The youngest Kardashian sister even revealed that she was living out of her car to stay away from the home in the past episode of Keeping up with the Kardashians that aired Sunday Jan. 26.

"I've basically thrown all my bare necessities into some suitcases and I'm kind of living out of my car right now. Literally my car has duffle bags on duffle bags in it...I don't want to sell my house - but know I have to," she said.

Be sure to tune in to the newest episode of Keeping up with the Kardashians airing Sunday Feb. 2 at 9/8c on E!

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